uhh hi?

i never actually thought i'd write in this thing again. not because i've been intentionally not doing so, but other things took over my thoughts and time and blog abilities. but i've been catching up on this other blog and in it she said that sometimes you just need to have something for you.  that she's not sure if really anyone reads what she says but that that matters very little.  she likes to write for herself.

i like that idea.

in all this time that i haven't publicly been sharing my thoughts, i have certainly continued writing.  i'm a huge advocate of writing of any kind, especially in a world that promotes all this technology.  usually, i'm lucky if i know how to turn a tv on....seriously.

maybe i'll start with things i've learned since the last time i posted? that feels like a good idea. just a reminder to myself. you can read if you want, but this is for me.

-you must live in the tension. very little is in your control, even the things you might think are.  more than that, trace back to the very depths of your being why you long for that control.  it can, and will, lead you to hard places. but ultimately, freedom.  all of life is tension. embrace it, or it will destroy you.
-everything and everyone you meet is who they will be/what it will be.  it is of course possible to change, but the world strives to be content, to be okay.  that requires a very consistent "staying-where-you-areness" and the likelihood of anyone/thing changing on purpose is slim because of that.  so, you better be sure you can always accept that man/woman/dog as they are right this very second.
-you really will be okay. nothing in the entire world will hit you so hard that you lose your footing. you might be brought to your knees, but you will not lose your footing.
-above all, you must learn to love yourself. it is a process, but you are not the culmination of your mistakes. you are on a very specific, direct, perfect path and you are OKAY. you are where you are supposed to be, always. "it's not too late or too soon; it is when it's supposed to be" (The Time Keeper)
-God is faithful.  always.  forevermore.  unimaginably.

hmmm that's all.