one day i'm going to live in the west
and snuggle by the fire
with a warm beverage
and warm food
and a warm boy

i've never lived in the west.
in a way it seems to represent all the things that feel unattainable to me
i cut 7 inches off of my hair this summer
i was hoping it would push me to the West.
West=graduate school
graduation
love
marriage
babies
all the things that threaten my comfort.
so far i haven't checked my bank account in 5 hours.

i'd say i'm doing pretty good.